Honestly, I did NOT intend to still be doing this now. I didn't even intend to lose this much. I just wanted to look good for the damn family photos and to be a little less embarrassed by how much I'd gained since moving countries. Originally, 3 months was all I was going to do. I had just under 3 months until the wedding I was due to attend where my entire family would be able to see me and judge. No, my family WOULDN'T be judging, but I would be and its easier to point at them as the impetus. I'd always been the heaviest of the cousins already and adding my post college poundage didn't help.
Monday, April 29, 2013
At first I didn't tell anyone I was losing weight except my partner. Its totally against what you're supposed to do, and every guide EVER tells you to be open about starting dieting. But I wasn't sure it would work, period, or that even if it did that I would stick to it.
Monday, April 22, 2013
Better sex life- The best thing that happened to me during this process is that my partner decided he would join in. Not only did it make it sooooo much easier to stay on plan with his willpower too, but I no longer had someone eating chocolate croissants and fatty takeaways next to me on the couch. So now, we both look hawt. I mean HAWT. And that has... added benefits. Moving on.
Learning to say Thank You- I hate compliments. Or at least I always did. My standard reply was "oh, its not really that impressive/interesting/cool/
insert positive thing
here." I have always downplayed my own abilities, especially
when confronted by others with them. Since about 20 pounds into my
weight loss though, when people were giving me verbal and physical pats
on the back to say how impressive what I was doing was, I've found that
no, screw you world/politeness/guilt complex,
I'm proud of what I've done! Now when people say kind things, I smile
broadly and say Thank You! and leave it at that. It started just for the
weight loss, but its flowed out to other achievements. Its nice to
finally take some credit for what I can do.
Peer Pressure doesn't pressure me so much- Related to above, but I don't feel like I have to eat something just because everybody else does to. My partner used to laugh at me as he could guarantee that whatever I was doing I'd drop it and come over to him as soon as he was making food for himself. I'd usually then leave the kitchen with something to eat. I still do it but I choose better options, and, more importantly, I can say no to most of the chocolates that show up in work. Except when someone brings in two homemade, delicious, moist carrot cakes. Then I have am forced to have cake for lunch. And maybe breakfast too.
Inner/Outer Me- Its kind of difficult to explain this, but here goes. My mental image of myself has never really added up to what I saw in the mirror. Its much, much closer now. Granted, in losing the weight my face has now changed shape which definitely takes some time to get used to. But I'm so much closer to that perfect me who has always been in my head now. It makes me feel younger.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Normally I would just happily keep this part of my life to myself, but its been a big change. Lifestyle change. And I don't want to just keep it to myself any longer. This weight loss has affected all aspects of my life, including the crafting.
It started with not wanting to look fat for the family photos that I knew would be taken at the upcoming wedding. Having not been in the same country as the rest of my family in more than 10 years, the fact I was there was going to be an instantaneous shout out that required copious amounts of documentation for the grandparents. I knew this. I also knew that I was heavier than any of these people had ever seen me what with 10 years of not particularly caring what I ate and lots of time spent playing computer games.